Chapter 20 Chapter 20 Theres this saying about breakups women grieve immediately but heal in a month , while men might take ages to realize what theyve lost .
Then comes the desperate backpedaling .
Aidens backpedaling came late after six months of playing the field and a quiet winter break , he suddenly became a constant presence in my life .
I never figured out what excuse he gave Columbia for missing classes , but he kept showing up in California .
Designer gifts appeared at my door I returned them all .
Hed wait outside my dorm for hours , refusing to leave .
When he caught me , hed trail me to class , to the dining hall , everywhere .
Jake was beside himself , torn between amusement and irritation .
You know , most girls dont have their exes fly across the country to stalk them , hed joke , but I could hear the worry beneath .
Mrs.
Carter called constantly , frantic that Aiden was risking academic probation , begging me to talk sense into him .
The irony wasnt lost on me the perfect son throwing everything away for the girl hed once taken for granted .
Finally , I confronted him by the bay .
Aiden immediately lost it .
Why can Jake pursue you but I cant? Hes known you for what , five minutes ? Ive known you my whole life .
Nobody knows you like I do , nobodys better for you than me .
I couldnt help but laugh .
Really , Aiden ? Have you forgotten everything you did ? Did you ever take my feelings seriously ? You just loved having someone worship you , knowing Id always be there no matter how badly you treated me .
Hit with the truth , he cracked .
Yes , I messed up .
I was young and stupid , thought the whole world was waiting for me .
I didnt want to be tied down .
I owe you a real apology Im sorry , Brooklyn .
His voice softened .
But even if you see me as a stranger now , dont I deserve a chance to win you back ? Since youve been gone , I cant adjust to life without you .
I cant imagine not sharing everything with you anymore .
The evening wind off the bay whipped around us as I considered my words carefully .
You know what I learned after leaving ? Real love shouldnt feel like walking on eggshells .
I can be myself now , my happiness doesnt depend on someone elses mood .
Maybe what I felt for you wasnt love maybe it was just teenage naivety .
17:42 Backup Girl No More : Adios To My V Card and My First Love 14.8 % Chapter 20 He looked like Id struck him .
When he finally spoke , his voice was small .
But we had plans college together , grad school , traveling the world .
Are you breaking all those promises too ? You broke them first , I said gently .
And Ive found someone I actually want to do those things with now .
His composure finally broke , eyes reddening .
Stop , please just stop .
Seeing his pain , I offered one last piece of advice : Maybe you dont really love me .
Maybe you just cant stand losing .
Aiden , its time for you to move on too .
I didnt wait for his response .
Jake was waiting across the street , and I ran to him .
He immediately laced his fingers through mine .
Finally got rid of your ex ? Did you tell him Im your official spider killer now ? I laughed through threatening tears .
Looking back one last time , I saw Aiden still frozen by the water .
Some people stay in your life forever .
Others are just chapters in your story .
Ours had finally reached its end .
My Card and My First Love
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