Chapter 1 Chapter 1 What are you watching ? Pax slipped his arms around me from behind , his breath warm against my skin .
A featherlight kiss landed on my earlobe , sending a shiver down my spine .
His gaze shifted to my phone screen .
For a long moment , he said nothing .
Then , with a low chuckle , he reached up and covered my eyes .
Dont watch that … its embarrassing .
The video kept playing .
On the screen , Pax was in a ballet dress , balancing on tiptoes , spinning in wobbly circles .
His movements were clumsy , awkward .
But his expression so focused , so serious made my chest tighten .
My throat felt dry .
Was it worth it ? I asked softly .
He had gone this far putting on a dress , performing ballet , throwing away his pride all to earn enough to buy me a measly $ 10 apple cake .
Was it really worth it ? Of course it was .
He answered without hesitation , his voice lazy , as if it was the easiest thing in the world .
This is nothing .
When I make real money one day , Ill buy you designer bags .
The kind that cost a hundred grand .
He paused after saying that , as if something had just occurred to him .
I clenched my fingers into a fist .
But on my face , there was still only a soft smile .
Alright , I said .
We lived in a cramped , rundown apartment in the heart of the city slums .
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The room was so small that once the bed was in , there was barely space for anything else .
A hundred grand .
It sounded like a figure from another world , impossibly out of reach .
And yet , today I had heard it twice .
Pax didnt know that I had been there that night , watching his performance from the crowd .
I was dressed in a clumsy , oversized Santa Claus suit , my face hidden beneath a tangled mess of cheap synthetic white hair .
The glue used to stick it on must have been low quality I felt an itch creeping across my skin , and soon , red splotches broke out along my jawline .
The event coordinator took one look at me and told me to head backstage to clean up .
That was when I passed by a room with its door left slightly ajar .
And I heard his voice .
Yeah , Im kind of over it .
Never in my life have I lived in a place that shitty , Pax said casually .
His tone was light , unfamiliar nothing like the man I thought I knew .
The markets right downstairs .
If you dont close the window , the whole room reeks of rotting fish and shrimp .
Laughter rippled through the room .
Someone chimed in , voice full of amusement .
You really went all out , huh ? Dressing up like that was a bold move .
After tonight , shell probably be completely devoted to you .
As if shed ever replace out that when Nina had her birthday , you bought her a $ 100,000 designer bag without even blinking .
Laughter erupted again .
$ 100,000 .
That number rang in my head , over and over .
Someone snorted .
So , Pax , how long are you planning to keep up this poor boy act ? Ninas coming back in seven days .
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The room was so small that once the bed was in , there was barely space for anything else .
A hundred grand .
It sounded like a figure from another world , impossibly out of reach .
And yet , today I had heard it twice .
Pax didnt know that I had been there that night , watching his performance from the crowd .
I was dressed in a clumsy , oversized Santa Claus suit , my face hidden beneath a tangled mess of cheap synthetic white hair .
The glue used to stick it on must have been low quality I felt an itch creeping across my skin , and soon , red splotches broke out along my jawline .
The event coordinator took one look at me and told me to head backstage to clean up .
That was when I passed by a room with its door left slightly ajar .
And I heard his voice .
Yeah , Im kind of over it .
Never in my life have I lived in a place that shitty , Pax said casually .
His tone was light , unfamiliar nothing like the man I thought I knew .
The markets right downstairs .
If you dont close the window , the whole room reeks of rotting fish and shrimp .
Laughter rippled through the room .
Someone chimed in , voice full of amusement .
You really went all out , huh ? Dressing up like that was a bold move .
After tonight , shell probably be completely devoted to you .
As if shed ever replace out that when Nina had her birthday , you bought her a $ 100,000 designer bag without even blinking .
Laughter erupted again .
$ 100,000 .
That number rang in my head , over and over .
Someone snorted .
So , Pax , how long are you planning to keep up this poor boy act ? Ninas coming back in seven days .
If she replaces out youve been fooling around with some random 18:01 Backup Girl No More : Adios To My V Card and My First Love 42.4 % Chapter 1 .
girl , youre screwed .
Exactly .
And poor girls are clingy as hell .
You better hope she doesnt get too attached .
Pax let out a lazy chuckle .
Whats there to worry about ? In seven days , Ill break up with her .
And if she doesnt let go ? Then Ill handle it , he said , stretching as if this whole thing was no more than a minor inconvenience .
Worst case , I fake some memory loss and act like I dont know her at all .
His laugh was careless .
What could she possibly do about it ? I stood frozen outside the door .
So he had been faking it all along .
The struggle , the sacrifices the nights spent in our cramped little apartment , pretending we were scraping by together .
And seven days from now , he was planning to end things .
I thought I would storm in and slap him across the face .
But I didnt .
I turned and walked away , heading back to the room I was supposed to be in .
Facing the mirror , I slowly peeled off the cheap white hair .
The glue had irritated my skin , leaving my chin swollen and sore .
I stared at my reflection at the ridiculous red patches , the remnants of that awful costume .
Then , suddenly , I laughed.Pax didnt know that I had been lying to him , too.I once promised that I would love him forever.But when it came down to a choice between my future and him I had never planned to choose him .
My plane ticket was already booked .
Departure date ironically seven days from now .
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