Chapter 9 Pax and I parted on bad terms .
Four days before I left the country , she was hospitalized.Just when I thought things couldnt get any more ridiculous , Nina tried to kill herself .
Shes got serious depressive tendencies .
Its just an apology .
Pax stood before me , fingers pressed to his forehead , as if the weight of this conversation had exhausted him .
The dim hospital lights cast deep shadows under his eyes evidence of a sleepless night .
I wondered if he had spent the night here , at her bedside .
He exhaled slowly , his patience fading by the second .
Wouldnt you ? I stared at him , my lips curling in amusement .
An apology ? I almost laughed .
Of course , I said , my assent easy , almost nonchalant .
Then I walked into her room .
The place smelled sterile and artificial , like disinfectant , with a hint of metal .
The monitors beeped at slow , rhythmic intervals , the only sound to break the silence .
Nina sat on the bed , her skin pale under the fluorescent light .
Her hair was combed to one side , framing her delicate features and making her look almost ethereal like a fragile thing that was almost broken .
When she saw me , her lips parted slightly .
I took a step closer and locked eyes with her .
Then , very clearly , I said , dics To My V Card and My First Love 48.4 % Chapter 9 .
Apologize , asshole .
The silence that followed was sharp , suffocating .
Nina blinked , stunned , as if she really expected me to come here , lower my head , and beg for her forgiveness .
Then , as if remembering her role , she quickly recovered her expression changed like a curtain being drawn .
Her lip trembled .
Her dark eyes shone , glassy with tears .
Her fingers clenched the hospital blanket , the knuckles white , as if my words hurt her .
I had to admire her .
She was really good at this .
As expected like a script hed rehearsed a thousand times before Parks was already in action .
His hand rested on her shoulder , and his voice softened , tender .
Nina … dont- I didnt stay to listen.Then I reached for my passport , my fingers curled around the familiar edge .
Without another word , I turned and walked away.But just as I reached the door , his voice broke the- silence .
Cecilia , if you walk out that door today , were really done .
I paused .
His words fell between us , heavy and firm , overwhelming .
I turned slightly and looked back at him .
He was watching me , waiting , expecting- Waiting for what ? Waiting for me to hesitate ? Am I going to buckle under the pressure of everything weve been through , everything weve shared ? I let out a slow breath .
48.7 % Chapter 9 .
And then , I smiled .
Deal .
Isnt that what Ive always wanted ? Not long ago , we had shared a cramped little bed in a dingy apartment , whispering about love , eternity , the life we thought we could build together .
Seven hundred days and nights .
I had dreamed of a better life .
I had dreamed of marrying him , too .
But then , one day , my old college mentor reached out to me , offering me something I had once thought impossible a research opportunity , a project position that could change everything .
The only problem ? The lab was in Germany .
I had spent too many years in the real world to believe that love could survive the ocean between us .
I didnt believe in long distance relationships .
I didnt believe in us .
So , I had planned to break up with Pax .
But for some reason , I still feel heartbroken and reluctant .
Now , he had done the work for me .
Now , the air was clear .
Now , I was free .
If you replace any errors (non-standard content, ads redirect, broken links, etc..), Please let us know so we can fix it as soon as possible.
Report