Backup Girl No More: Adios To My V-Card and My First Love
Chapter 74

Chapter 20 I never thought Id see Pax again .

But fate , it seemed , had a cruel sense of humor .

Two years later , on another Christmas Eve , as Berlin slipped into wintertime , I found myself walking through streets dusted in the seasons first snowfall .

The golden glow of streetlamps flickered against frost coated windows , the world outside hushed and serene .

Inside the lab , however , serenity was the last thing on our professors mind .

This ones going to be a handful , she muttered , rubbing her temples in exasperation .

Her frustration was so uncharacteristic that Erike and I exchanged amused glances .

Whats the problem , Professor ? Erike asked , barely suppressing a grin .

A hard case , she sighed .

Connections .

Family money .

One of those .

Cant be fired , hard to manage what a headache .

Then , as if resigning herself to fate , she looked between the two of us .

So ? Which one of you is going to mentor him ? A man , then .

I instinctively took a full step back .

Erike you do it .

I shook my head with mock solemnity .

Id hate for her to fall helplessly in love with me .

A voice came from behind me .

A voice I hadnt heard in two years .

Cecilia .

I stilled .

For a moment , I thought I had imagined it .

18:22 Backup Girl No More : Adios To My V Card and My First Love 57.0 % Chapter 20 But when I turned , there he was .

Pax Brown .

Standing in our lab .

That night , he officially joined our team .

And in the weeks that followed he shattered nine beakers .

Forgot to turn off the equipment fifteen times .

By the time he nearly melted an expensive sensor , I couldnt take it anymore .

I turned to him and , for the first time in two years , I spoke to him directly .

Maybe you should just marry a beaker .

Pax froze .

For a second , he just stared at me .

Then his eyes turned red .

Cecilia , he breathed , voice raw .

Does this mean youve finally forgiven me ? He looked at me like he had been waiting for this moment longer than he could bear .

He told me he had meant every word hed said back then .

That he had done as he promised .

That he had long since severed ties with Nina .

But that had never been the real problem , had it ? They had grown up together .

He had spent his whole life by her side , buying her gifts .

Picking her up in the dead of night .

If I had been in her place , maybe I would have fallen for him too.

I shook my head .

57.2 % My First Love Chapter 20 The fact that youre even asking me this question means you still dont understand me .

His breath hitched , his fingers twitching at his sides like he wanted to reach for me .

But before he could , Huaiyu stepped forward , casually positioning himself between us .

Paxs breathing turned uneven .

So thats it , then ? His voice was barely above a whisper .

Youre with him ? Erike ? What was he even talking about ? I laughed , shaking my head .

Pax , what does this have to do with anyone else ? I looked at him really looked at him .

I just cant tolerate being lied to .

You lied to me once , and I will never be able to trust you again .

There was a time when the thought of leaving him had made my chest ache .

A time when just the idea of walking away had felt like ripping myself apart .

But I had left .

And I had survived .

Because the truth was I didnt want to spend the rest of my life questioning .

Did he love me ? Was I enough ? Would I always come first ? I had no interest in becoming that kind of woman .

So I smiled soft , distant , untouchable .

10.90 To My Card and My First Love 57.49 % Chapter 20 Youre a mess , Pax .

Youre terrible at this .

Please dont ruin our lab too .

Then , just as gently Can you not make me hate you ?