Extra Pages: The Author's Odyssey
Chapter 309: Journal [3]

January 5th, 2027

9:44 PM

My heart is fucking hurting, and it won't stop! I've seen doctors and heart surgeons, but they just spout bullshit!

My father is not by the behaviour i was showing nowadays but you know what? I don't care about

...By the way, I tried alcohol for the first time. Yeah, I know I'm only 14, but other noble kids do it too.

At first I only did it because I thought doing that would stop them from ignoring me, but I genuinely don't care anymore.

Oh, and guess what?

I've decided to stop training. Why the hell should I give a shit about it? I don't want train anymore."

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`Fabury 21st, 2027

7:57 PM

Fuck off, diary. Fuck off, world.`

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`Aprail 12th, 2027

6:43 PM

Seems like getting high is way more fun than I thought. I don't get why people have such a problem with drug users.

Because honestly, in my opinion, they're the ones living life on easy mode! Hahaha!

Oh, and today I bashed a glass bottle into the head of one of bullies who have been bullying for me all this time, It Split it open like a damn watermelon!

And you know what they did? They suspended me for it.

Fucking bastards.

They did jack shit when I was being bullied, but the moment I fought back, they suspended me? Huh!`

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June 20th, 2027

Today was worst day of all my life.

Evelyn was trying to console me but not only did I shouted her I even slapped her on the face.

I was not being myself.

When I come to my senses I saw Evelyn tears as she quietly walked away.

I don't know what to do anymore.

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September 8, 2027

It's been 3 months since our fight and Evelyn is not talking to me anymore.

At first I tried to say sorry but she ignored me.

She didn't even spare a glance at me.

And like that we didn't talk with each other for 3 months.

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November 8th, 2027

Today I caused a problem on market street with some of delinquent there.

It was nice feeling to let myself on loose without carrying about anything else.

Also I stopped caring about Evelyn... It's not like this my fault. I did try to say sorry for my mistake but she didn't even glance and continue to egnore me.

I don't know what I'm doing to do? I don't wanna loose her.

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December 30, 2027.

Today I met Evelyn father, the leader of Night shade clan.

I was terrified when meeting, he told me to leave his daughter alone. I'm just hinder to her in her way to reach the top.

He even threatened me that if i didn't hear his words my family would meet his worst fate.

I don't care whatever happened to me but I don't want anything else to happen to my family.

I have already cause more then enough problem to them.

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As I read through the entries in my journal, a wave of despair washes over me, each word a painful reminder of the downward spiral my life has taken.

January 5th, 2027 – The agony in my heart is overwhelming, and no amount of medical intervention can ease the pain. Turning to alcohol as a coping mechanism only numbs the ache temporarily, leaving me feeling more lost and alone than ever before. Abandoning my training, once a source of pride and purpose, feels like admitting defeat in the face of insurmountable despair.

February 21st, 2027 – Anger and bitterness consume me as I lash out at the world, desperate to numb the pain of rejection and isolation. My once-cherished diary becomes a symbol of my frustration and disillusionment, a testament to the darkness that threatens to engulf me.

April 12th, 2027 – The allure of drugs and violence offers a fleeting escape from the harsh reality of my existence. With each hit and each act of aggression, I sink deeper into a downward spiral of self-destruction, heedless of the consequences of my actions.

June 20th, 2027 – A moment of clarity amidst the chaos as I realize the extent of the harm I've caused, both to myself and to those I care about. The sight of Evelyn's tears serves as a harsh reminder of the pain I've inflicted, leaving me haunted by regret and remorse.

September 8th, 2027 – Three months of silence weigh heavily on my heart as Evelyn continues to shut me out, her absence a constant reminder of my failures and shortcomings. Despite my attempts at reconciliation, I am met with nothing but cold indifference, further fueling my sense of despair.

November 8th, 2027 – Desperation drives me to seek solace in recklessness, heedless of the consequences of my actions. The prospect of losing Evelyn looms large in my mind, but my attempts to win her back only seem to push her further away.

December 30th, 2027 – A chilling encounter with Evelyn's father serves as a stark reminder of the stakes involved in our tumultuous relationship. His threats leave me shaken and afraid, torn between my love for Evelyn and the safety of my own family.

Most the words that Lucas have written in his Journal, I remember them.

After all I did have old Lucas memories inside me.

But there are some parts that i didn't remember.

For example, I don't remember that Lucas hit the one of his bullies with glass of bottle or that he cause a problem in market streets with some delinquent.

This confirms it. Someone truly manipulated Lucas' memories. Amelia was telling the truth, not that I ever doubted her.

Anyway, the story is unfolding more or less as I remembered.

Lucas was happy. Then his mana core awakened. People started bullying and avoiding him. He spiraled out of control

Then after that his happy life turned into worse.

And it continue to worsen has day goes by.

So by that means next page should be about what Lucas did after his meeting with Evelyn father.

Well I already know what happened, Evelyn and Lucas had duel in which Lucas got his ass kicked out.

But I want read this journal, so that i could replace something that wasn't in my memories.

Flip-!

With that thought I turned the pages of Journal and got into next page.

...Huh?!"

However, the moment I turned the page, my breathing fastened, and my eyes widened in surprise.

My heart slammed violently against my chest as I read the words written in the diary before me.

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`Samuel, I am well aware of your intentions.

Don't you dare investigate my past just yet!

You're not ready for it. You are not ready to understand anything yet!

So close this journal, set it on fire, and refrain from prying into my life for now. Your focus should be solely on getting stronger and nothing else!

Your time will come. I will grant you the answers you seek, but only when the time is right.

And right now, it's not the time.

Consider this your first and final warning.

~Lucas Darkheart.`

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[End Of Volume 2:- Establishment]

[Note:- Volume 2 comes to end with this chapter. I will not upload any chapters for 2 days because I have to thought about upcoming plot but don't worry I'll mass release on 1st April.]