Falling For My Cruel Mate
Chapter 84

I bite my lip as it starts to quiver and the tears threaten to spill. His words were so kind and loving, but it felt as though he was saying goodbye. Did he think we wouldn't win? That Jalex would get the best of us? That he wouldn't make it out alive? I could feel my heart tighten in my chest at just the mere thought of no longer having Ajax at my side.

"And so I need to be honest with you." Those electric blue eyes dig into me and I swear I could feel my heart melting in a puddle right in his hands. He has my heart and I'm not quite sure how he got it. I nod my head up and down, a sign for him to continue. My fingers worm their way into his hair and play with the silky strands nervously.

"I wasn't just physically abused by my father..." He takes in a deep breath. I knew part if this information already, he told me the night of the party that another Alpha abused him as well. I have my suspicions has to who it could be. My hands move down to his tense shoulders, rubbing and massaging at his taught muscles as he tries to replace the right words to say. I don't rush him.

We sit in silence. his fingers push through my hair a few times before snaking their way down the side of my body and to my thighs. He begins to fumble and play with the hem of the large t-shirt I was wearing. He insisted that I wear his clothes is that I would have my scent on me to ward off any unmated males. The mark doesn't do much of good job at that unless were fully mated, which we're

not.

He clears his throat but his focus still remains on the hem of the T-shirt. I press my lips together nervously as his part to from the words that clearly scared him. He didn't have to be scared of saying them to me though, I would never dare to judge him for his past. He didn't have any say or control over what happened to him.

"I was sexually harassed and abused by Jargen Cove."

Octavia:

December Second.

It was like a wall had finally come down. He had broken it down just to show me, to share it with me. The moment those ocean blue eyes looked up at me I could see it all. The pain, the hurt, the fear, the anger thats always been there and the love I've always struggled to see. He opened it all up to me. My heart broke for him the moment our eyes connected, my eyes betrayed me as the tears spilled past them. I wanted to comfort him so badly and instead he comforted me. I didn't know what to say or do, but to hold him and apologize. Apologize for something I didn't do and for something he had no control over. I laid on him all night, holding onto him and wishing he had never gone through something so horrible.

I don't remember falling asleep, but I knew that I didn't dare to let go of him.

As I stare at him now its hard to picture him as a child. A sweet and innocent child. His strong features were still sharp as he slept peacefully. He breathed calmly, the rise and fall of his chest allowing me to relax further into the blankets and pillows. Unconsciously I reach out for his smooth face. So peaceful, my fingers run across the space in between his brows where a line would appear every time he furrowed them in concentration or anger.

I run my thumb across his smooth lips, daring to place a small kiss on them. I do.

It was so light my lips barely touched his, but it was enough to make his eyes flutter. Those eyes stare back at me and a small smile graces his lips. I return it of course.

"Good morning." I whisper out to him. Although it felt good to be laying here by his side, the sight behind him made my heart sink in my chest. I look past him as the daunting white flakes fall down upon the earth. It didn't seem to be sticking to the trees or the ground but it still made me nervous.

His hand reaches for me, tucking my lose hair behind my ear as he plants a kiss on my lips making me feel ten times better already. "How'd you sleep?" He asks me, pulling the blankets up higher around my shoulders and pulling me closer to him.

"I think I should be asking you that question."

"I wasn't the one who cried last night so, no you shouldn't be asking me that question."

"I slept fine, no dreams or nightmares." I prop myself up on my elbow and look down at him. I don't think I'll ever get tired of just looking at him. Ever. "What about you?"

"It was great, because I had you here with me." He lifts himself up and push his large hands into my hair, tugging me closer to him and connecting his lips to mine.

I hum in delight just as he pulls away from me. "I adore you, Octavia."

A shiver climbs its way up my spine as my name rolls off of his tongue.

My lips part to form words but before I could even let out a whisper my stomach growls loudly. I could feel the heat rise to my cheeks as I immediately reach for my stomach, willing it to be quiet. Ajax chuckles lightly before beginning to remove the blankets from his body. Just as he's about climb out of bed I grab onto his arm, pulling slightly.

"No," I whine and pout, putting on my best puppy dog eyes once he looks back at me. "Please stay in bed with me." I was taken aback at how needy I sounded just then. It's like it wasn't in control though. My body was screaming for him more and more everyday. I longed to be next to him constantly and it was a becoming insufferable.

"Octavia, it's snowing outside." His once peaceful face is quickly washed over with worry. "We have a lot of preparing to do today. It wont be long before the snow starts to stick."