I will not die a Villainess's death
Chapter 235 234: A Glimpse Of The World [Pt1]

Initially, Sara had no intention of helping the helpless kids she saw on her way out of the temple. She was moderately invested in helping out lost travelers.

Especially in the current times when there was an abundance of such travelers asking to see the Head Priest and praying for their safety. The more it happened, the more it got on Sara's nerves.

Moreover, she was having constant headaches that happened far too often, and she could not guess why that was. She felt that her magic was fighting against something she could not see.

It was irritating and got Sara into a bad mood.

So she was not going to interfere when two kids suddenly appeared in the temple and were dressed suspiciously. She had no contention of helping them out.

And then she heard Lucas's name which changed things for her. Normally, people tend to avoid saying Lucas Dirac's name in public. Especially even more so when they did not know him.

But not only had these people taken Lucas's name, but they had also decided to look for him. It was her curiosity that caused Sara to decide to help them.

It was cute how the kids thought that they could threaten her. It was not going to work on her but Sara would let the kids think that it was affecting her.

"So, you said that you could take us to Lucas Dirac but how do you plan on doing that? It's not like you can just walk up to the royal palace and demand to be let in."

Serina's eyes narrowed in suspicion as she tried to figure the fox lady out. She did not like the expression of amusement that she was being faced with. It gave her the creeps.

And Sara could read that expression on Serina's face. The poor girl seemed to be trying hard to not show her fear. Unfortunately, it was not a very successful trial.

Sara had too much experience looking through others' facades. This immature lady in front of her had no chance of fooling her now

The guy on the other hand was much more interesting and refined. He was extremely young but he still gave off an authoritative aura. His eyes were also strong and did not back down when Sara showed her agitation.

"Why cannot we just walk up to the royal palace and demand to be let in? That is what I am planning of doing anyway."

Sara watched as the expression on her guest's faces faltered for a second before they regained their masks. It was fun when she managed to catch people off guard. They always showed her the best expressions possible.

"Quite your fooling around. If you can help us then do. If not, then buzz off."

Serina's snapping voice finally caused Sara to break out into laughter. She had a feeling that she would like these two amusing teens since they seemed to not fear her.

"Yes, I got it. Follow me if you want to get into the royal palace. As for everything else, there is no need for you to worry."

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White surrounded Elysia when she opened her eyes. There was nothing around her but the hollowness of the space and her clothes.

Was this what death was about? To wander in a space and not replace a way out every. It was terrifying to feel like this but the serenity of this place calmed Elysia down. She felt like she could let all her worries disappear.

'I wish I could bring everyone else here as well. Though, I have no idea how they would react.'

This place was too blank and boring for most people to like for a long time. Only a tried soul like Elysia could replace peace while being here.

All she wanted to do was to close her eyes now and fall asleep but Elysia forced herself to open her eyes to reality.

She forced herself to look into the only patch of color except her eyes in this white space. And it was the small pool in the center of the whiteness. It showed the outside world and what was going on there.

The world was in a state of unrest. Monsters were appearing one by one and rifts in space were opening. Monsters were entering the empire and killing off people.

It was all of the big concern but Elysia's emotions could not comprehend why it was all bad. She could not figure out why she should feel upset over what was happening.

After all, none of the people Elysia liked would die. Her sacrifice had been for that sake only.

"How are you doing, my little flower? Does looking at the outside world fill you with a longing to go and experience it again?"

Elysia knew she should be scared or even startled when Axia spoke like this. He liked to appear all of a sudden and disappear as well when Elysia was not looking. He was an enigma who had forced Elysia into this space.

But despite that, Elysia could not replace the feeling called 'fear' inside her when he looked at Axia. To her, Axia was just another component of this place.

There had been a time she had been angry at Axia for what he did. But the more time Elysia spent in this white world, the more she understood that Axia had no control over what he could and could not do.

He might be called the 'will of this world' but he was no more of a puppet than anyone else, forced to give up all his rights.

"Are you not tired of it all? All this suffering and being made to comply with this world's demands all the time? Don't you want to flee this world?"

Elysia spoke those words but they did not have any will behind them. Her lips were moving and the sound was coming out of them, but she was numb to what she was saying.

"Flee? Where can people like us even go if we manage to flee? We should accept our fate of being abandoned and learn to live with it. This world doesn't like us but we like it."

Fondness was another feeling Elysia had a hard time remembering. As for why that was, Elysia had a few guesses but nothing solid.

"What is going to happen to this world now? Are you sure things would turn out to be alright?"

Elysia asked these questions, knowing that they had no answer.

"Who knows if we will see anything change in this world in the future? How about your body? Are you feeling alright?"

"I am feeling quite perfect. I don't think there is anything here that can hurt me anymore. But still, I don't know why my heart hurts this bad. It feels like I am forgetting something."

No matter how much Elysia wished and tried to remember, there were things she could not force herself to remember. It was irritating but it was also the truth of her reality now.

Elysia wanted to get her emotions and her feelings back. But her fear was hindering her in the end. She did not want to feel hurt or make it difficult to stay here.

And it was then that memory stuck with her. She was not sure why she even remembered such a thing but all she felt was pain and a desire to go home.

She had been in a constant state of turmoil and she had wanted to escape her skin. She had even tried to end her life because of it.

'I was the one who handed over my emotions because I could not handle them anymore. Now I remember why this happened. It was all for my own sake in the first place.'

Perhaps, it would have been difficult to accept had Elysia got any semblance of emotions in her body. She was someone foolish enough to hand her progress over to someone and it hurt to admit it.

But her apathetic self made it easier to handle her emotions now. It no longer hurts to think about home and going back.

Scenes played out in the water, they showed Eve and Adam. They also showed other people she knew, like Sorias and Enma.

And then the water stopped on Lucas and a child in his arms. For the first time, Elysia felt the semblance of pain striking her chest and she gripped it hard.

She felt like she knew the child but his name was escaping Elysia for some reason. The kid was important and Elysia wanted to touch him.

'Adrian.'

That was what Lucas called the kid and Elysia felt her heart overflow with emotions. Her hand reached out to touch the child's face before the water was disturbed the it lost its shape.

It fell back into the pull, no longer displaying those golden eyes.

"It's enough playing around. You should go back and rest your body now. The final calamity is fast approaching."