Pay With Your Heart
Chapter 307 - Hard To Forgive

"What nonsense are you talking about?" Father Lee asked.

Dan-Han tightly narrowed his eyes at him, before taking a seat opposite him.

"Is this because of Eun-sun?" He asked, while his father put away the papers he had been holding.

"Have you sent her away?" He asked a question of his own without answering Dan-Han's question making Dan-Han frown at him.

"So you brought Kwon-Nara back to spite me." He wasn't asking him, he was certain that was the case. Father Lee stared at him squarely in the eyes, his face devoid of any emotions whatsoever.

"I didn't bring her to spite you, I brought her to help correct your foolishness." He told him.

Dan-Han lolled back on the chair as his intent gaze circled on his father, "And how do you intend to do that?" He asked.

Father Lee sighed and shrugged. "I don't need to know that, she's a woman she'll figure it out for herself." He picked up his cup and sipped from it again.

Dan-Han nodded his head in understanding as he rose up to his feet, his cold eyes met with that of his father. "I'll give you one chance to call off whatever nonsense you think you're up to, else I'll send her head to you in a box and you can shoulder the responsibility of her death." He warned but his father stared at him like he wasn't fazed. What he didn't know was that he wasn't bluffing.

"What about the girl? Are you sending her away from my company or what?"

"It is my company not yours, and whatever I say goes." Dan-Han turned away to leave, but he paused when his father spoke up.

"How much more will you give to a woman who doesn't love you? She has caused us pain, and you know she isn't good for you."

"Let me be the judge of that." Dan-Han coldly replied before continuing on his stride.

Dan-Han was disappointed to know he had been right about his suspicion of his father's involvement in Kwon-Nara's return and the signed contract.

Why was everyone always doing something behind his back, hurting and stressing him out. Everyone was always trying to dictate what should and shouldn't happen in his life, or what he should and shouldn't know. He was tired of all that.

If his father was doing all this for him to send Eun-sun away from the company, then he should come with a better plan. He had been suspicious that his father would do something when he threatened him to send her away, but he hadn't thought it would be this.

If his father had brought Kwon-Nara through Ji-Tae, then maybe there was something else he didn't know about.

Dan-Han spent the remaining hours in the office not sure of what to do. His mind was filled with so much thoughts - thoughts of Park Eun-sun. For some odd reason he couldn't take his mind off her. He had pondered why she had been crying in public and he could only think of one reason, him.

She had stopped waiting for him at the car park after he had warned her not to. He looked at the time, it was past closing time, but for some reason he knew she was still within the premises. She always went home late these days, and he wondered why.

What was he doing? He asked himself when he picked up his phone and headed for the door.

"President Lee-"

"Tell the driver to bring the car around." He said as he walked towards the elevator. He hesitated the moment he arrived the eight floor. He didn't know what he was doing, but his heart kept propelling him in that direction.

With slow steps he approached the door to the development department. He stood by the door as he watched her. She lolled herself on the swivelling chair while she intently stared at the ceiling like there was something fascinating in it.

He looked at the time again, and he sighed. He paused his hand on the door and pondered what he was doing. Why was he here? He looked at the empty hallway, before staring at her again.

He was about to turn away when her voice halted him on the spot.

"Dan-Han." He heard her call. He could hear her light steps as she approached him.

"Dan-Han?" She called again. He pursed his lips and exhaled as he turned towards her. His eyes met hers and the tension in them eased, while he trailed her from head to toes.

They both stared at each other without saying a word. He could see the surprise in her eyes and he could guess the questions running through her mind.

"Why are you still here?" He asked.

"I-I had some work to do." She replied. Her voice sounding so small and nervous. As a matter of fact, she was feeling nervous.

He nodded and walked into her office. Eun-sun watched him with surprised eyes before slowly following him.

She stood by her door as she watched him stare out the window. She slightly stiffened when he turned around and glanced at her again.

"I have one question for you, I hope you give me an honest answer." He said causing her anxiety to increase as she keenly gazed at him, waiting for his question.

"Why, Park Eun-sun? Why did you do something like that?" Eun-sun didn't need a soothsayer to tell her what he meant. Why did she hide an important secret from him.

Eun-sun could feel her heart race as her lips parted to give an answer. "I - I didn't know what to do." She stuttered out.

"I didn't know how to tell you that you'd lose your mother. I promised her I wouldn't and I didn't want to break my promise to her." She paused and took a step towards him. She paused when she thought he'd stop her, but he didn't and that encouraged her to take few more steps till she was barely two feet away from him.

"Mother...she was the first person who showed me what true motherly feelings felt like. She made feel what I've missed in years and....and maybe I wanted to prove to myself that I could be a good daughter to someone as well, someone that truly looked at me like a child." Tears slowly began to pool in her eyes. She took one more step closer to him, her tear glistening eyes deeply starting at his.

"Maybe I was selfish, and I did what I did for all the wrong reasons, but believe Dan-Han, I never meant to hurt you. I'd die than rather hurt you in any way. You and mother mean the world to me and it isn't same without any of you in it." She tried blinking back her tears but they couldn't stay in anymore and trickled down her cheeks. Her hand nervously reached for his. Dan-Han looked at his hand in hers before staring back at her face.

"Dan-Han, I'm truly sorry. I'm sorry I did wrong by you, and I'm sorry for breaking your trust and ever making you shed a tear."

Dan-Han silently stared at her. He didn't know what to say, and all he could do was stare at her face. He closed his eyes and sighed, before withdrawing his hand away from her. Eun-sun felt a pang in her chest, but she was shocked when he suddenly reached for her face. He brought out a handkerchief from his pocket and wiped her tears. Her heart suddenly began to ram hard against her chest, while her eyes remained fixed on him.

He sighed as he cupped her cheek. "I really want to hate you right now, but it's so hard. I wonder if I do, does it mean I never loved you enough? Or does it mean I've failed to be human and i lack compassion? Does it mean I've defined you by one mistake you might have made out of love and respect." He paused and sighed again.

"It's so hard to forgive, Park Eun-sun." He said as he rubbed his thumb against her cheek. "I'm trying but it's hard."

"I'm sorry."

"I know you are. But I can't have my mother back, and I can't enough time to be with her and fight for her, and I can't help but feel betrayed. It's hard."

She nodded in understanding as more tears rolled down her cheek. She placed her small hand on his large ones that covered her face.

"I'll wait, Dan-Han. I'll wait till you forgive me, even if it takes a lifetime, I'll wait." She told him. Dan-Han didn't know how to feel after hearing that. He didn't want her to wait, neither did he want to wait. He wanted to move past the anger in his heart and consider her sin as a mistake, but he couldn't just wish it away. He couldn't wish the anger and pain away. He was human, and he should be allowed to be resentful even if it towards the woman he loves.

He leaned closer to her and placed a kiss on her forehead. "I hope we can get past this someday. I really hope so." He muttered. Eun-sun didn't know what to say, but her heart continued to hammer more even as he longingly stared at her before walking away.

Her knees felt weak and she felt like falling to the floor as she watched him leave. She wasn't used to him being like this, and she didn't know if she'd ever be used to it. But seeing him walk away, she couldn't help but ponder what he meant by the words he had said.

Does this mean they were going to get another chance together, or was this just a step to the end?